Monday, January 29, 2007

Is God Really There?

I cant tell you how many times I have asked that question. I have called myself a Christian for some time now, but couldnt really claim that because I havent actully studied his Word and couldnt tell a soul anything if they asked me questions. All I could say was, "well everyone says its true, and we got here somehow".. So I started into this process very slowly. People around me keep talking about the end of the world and all the signs that are leading up to that day. Well, I have to say --that is just scarey to me!! Most people say they look forward to that day; Well, I am not there yet, I want to see my babies grow up and get married and experience life raising my children to Know God. Is it a scarey world to live in? YES! Do I wish things were better for my girls? Of Course! But I know it could be ALOT worse!!! And maybe someday it will be worse, it seems to be heading that direction, but right now I am so enjoying my babies, and watching how they grow, and listening to them learn new words, and learn new things. Well, I was feeling extremely overwhelmed about this topic one day and just totally scared to leave my house, so I started researching and asking questions for myself: I found a website and just decided to sign up for daily devotionals. Well, guess what the devotionals were about? THe end TIMES! OH NO, I did this to get away from this subject.....

But as I read through them each day, i started to realize, No one can tell me when that day is coming, the signs on this earth may not be signs of that at all, NO Human can make that prediction. So i started to calm down and live life again. then other questions came up about various things, and as they would come into my head, I would check my email and there would be my answers -right there in those devotionals. I often wondered "how in the world does GOD speak to people?" These peole are nuts, I havent heard him say a word to me. WEll , someone once asked me, "ARE YOU LISTENING?" What a concept? I was suppose to listen??? News to me!

Just recently I have Prayed and asked God to use me to witness, I begged and pleaded for days, just show me something so I can show people who you are so that I know I am not crazy!!! I want to help people. I want to better my personality and become the loving person I know I have DEEP DOWN inside of me! I was not getting any answers, I would go to say something to someone to comfort them and didnt have a clue what I was talking about. Well, low and behold, the other day I had an email, the "FAMOUS DEVOTION" -Someone must be emailing my thoughts to Pastor Greg Laurie, is all I can figure... but his devotion that day was simply this:

2 Timothy 2:2, "And the things that you have heard from me among many witnesses, commit these to faithful men who will be able to teach others also"You might be thinking, Lord, come on! Use me. Call on me. I will turn this world upside down for You. But the Lord may be saying, "You are not ready yet. I have to prepare you first." Be faithful to do what He has set before you today to the best of your ability." He goes on to tell the story in Acts about Stephen and how he was used to serve, not to go and PREACH and save people. Then the big Kicker:

And as the Lord found him faithful in the little things, He gave him more responsibility.You can never be too small for God to use; only too big. We need to be faithful in what God has set before us. Because if we are not faithful in the little things, then we won't be in the big things
WOW! Was this an answer or what? So now I see God is there listening and hearing those Prayers but I have to stop and Listen and I may not be getting the answer I am searching for; but, I am getting the answer I NEED.

I am a day behind on the 90 day reading so I will leave this lengthy post (sorry, if you are tired of reading this by now) and go study his word. I Pray for Faith and Trust to let life go and let GOD lead!


Staci Barham said...

What an amazing post!! Let me just say that I believe that he is using you to help me see that He "Is really there". I can't wait to see what is next for you and me to learn. I am so very blessed to have you as a dear friend. Hope you have a blessed day! Staci

Diane J. said...

Hi, Krista and welcome to blogging! :-)

Thanks for stopping by my blog and wishing me a happy blogiversary. Look through my blogroll for some great blogs to read, and look in the Family Friendly Blogroll for some good Christian blogs. Most of the blogs in my blogroll are Christians, but a few aren't; I'm working on them. ;-)

Keep praying and listening, and I promise God will show you His will for you. More than that, HE promises to show you His will for you. :-)

Kate said...

Hi Krista!
Thanks for stopping by my blog...good to "meet" another Christian Mama! :) I encourage you to keep on seeking your Father God, He will not hide but He will reveal Himself to you and who you are as one of His kids! God is faithful, girl, you just keep clinging to HIM!
Love in Christ---

Mayhem & Miracles said...

John 7:17 "If any man will to do his will, he will know of the doctrine, whether it be of God, or whether I speak of myself." I love this verse. I have a certain family member who is not saved and always tells me, "I don't want to trust God just because I'm pressured to and then find out I was wrong." I tell her if she doesn't want to be wrong before God, then she has a desire to do right by Him. Now she just has to be convinced in her heart. And just like this verse states, the trick to that is to read his Word. He'll convict her of the doctrine.
You have a sweet heart, searching and studying to do right by God. His Word that you're studying will make more and more sense each time you read it. And you've convicted me to get back to not slacking off, too! Have a wonderful night, Krista.

Anonymous said...

What a wonderful post about how God is listening and we just have to "turn on our listening ears," like I say to Rachel so often. :0) I really liked how you shared the following thoughts from the devotional you got . . .

"You might be thinking, Lord, come on! Use me. Call on me. I will turn this world upside down for You. But the Lord may be saying, "You are not ready yet. I have to prepare you first." Be faithful to do what He has set before you today to the best of your ability."

I appreciated the rest of it too but that part jumped out at me. So often I feel like I'm not witnessing like I should, doing like I should, etc. Yet, I'm often reminded of a friend's encouragement, "Bloom where you're planted." After all, the work is to be done by the Holy Spirit, we just have to be ready and willing. Hmm . . . you're making me think. Thanks for being a blessing, being open, and sharing your life's journey with us. :)